Notes: song by Emilia ("Big Big World"). This is supposed to be from Yuki's POV. It sounds a lot better if you actually have the song; the lyrics are simplistic, but I feel they add to Yuki's character. Oh well.

Inspired by [621] - Yuki.

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss you much
Miss you much

Mr. Piro-san... I've looked through his sketchbook, looked through his things. I know him, don't I? Know the sadness in his drawings, the sense of being apart from everything somehow... of being a stranger. I know that too. Shouldn't that knowledge mean that I understand him better than anyone else? Than even that ex-idol washout, than even that seemed to be so concerned about him?

I know him best...

I can see the first leaves falling
It's all yellow and nice
It's so very cold outside
Like the way I'm feeling inside

Cold. Alone. If I know him best, then why do I have to be alone? Can't he understand what I've been through? Teasing from my group of friends, fear of running into my father;

I saw Miho, at the book store. She, too, was skipping classes.

"All that rage, anger, and energy..." She seemed to know what she spoke of. Maybe she's been through this before, with someone else. Maybe she liked someone else and got hurt-

Piro wouldn't hurt me. I understand him. He couldn't. Couldn't-!

Outside it's now raining
And tears are falling from my eyes
Why did it have to happen
Why did it all have to end

I look outside. Away from Piro, away from that one girl. It hurts. And yet, I can't quite pin down why.

Of all the things I've done... looking through the bag, keeping it for awhile, commenting on the sketches, seeing all the emotion there - are they just for nothing, after all? Is he not interested at all? Even doing something as easy for him as teaching me how to draw... is that too much to ask of him?

I have your arms around me
Warm like fire
But when I open my eyes......
You're gone

He's... an adult. Grown up. He... must be busy. That's right. He's from America, he'd probably want to go back home. He doesn't want to stay here in Japan, does he? Maybe he thinks it's too much trouble. Maybe he left something behind.

.... a girlfriend? I wonder if he has a girlfriend back in America. That would explain the clumsiness...

... I feel my heart pounding. No, that can't be true. Someone like Piro? A girlfriend back home? No. He would have had to hurt her, coming here. Coming to Japan. Piro doesn't seem the type to hurt anyone. Could he even hurt anyone?

I'm a big big girl
In a big big world
It's not a big big thing if you leave me
But I do do feel
That I do do will
Miss you much
Miss you much...

There's so much I don't know. And yet, I like him. I want to learn from him, want to be worthy in his eyes. I try so hard - can't the guy see my sincerity? Can't he? Can't he see? Can't he understand?

Maybe I have to leave.

Yes. I'll have to leave.

It'll still hurt. Maybe I'll have to find Tohya-san again. Maybe she'll know, maybe she'll understand. Maybe she'll help me make Piro understand.

I have to make him understand.

I have to make him understand that he's hurt me...

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