I am
A little bit of loneliness
A little bit of disregard
A handful of complaints
But I can't help the fact
That everyone can see these scars


I step into your study. You are working on that thing again. You always were, as long as I could remember. You still are. And for all I know, you always will be. What's it matter anyway? Or rather, what do I matter to you?

I am
What I want you to want
What I want you to feel
But it's like
No matter what I do
I can't convince you
To just believe this is real


I can feel the anger rising up again. Anger at you, at your work. At myself too. But I know it's not my fault. But I can't help it. We were so happy together. What went wrong? Why wont you pay attention to me?!

So I let go
Watching you
Turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here
'Cause you're all that I got


Maybe…I should try again?

"Largo?"

You stop what you are doing. You sigh, and turn in your chair to face me. You don't even get up.

"Miho. I'm busy. You can see that. What is it?"

Your tone of voice. Like a mother reprimanding a child…

"I just thought maybe we should go somewhere tonight. You are always busy. We never spend time together anymore…"

Please, please, just one time?

"No. I cant. I'm busy, Miho. Please let me work."

I guess not.

"Okay…"

I leave your study. I can feel the tears welling up as I fall face down onto the couch. I can see raindrops falling onto the window. Maybe the sky feels my pain too…it seems like you never do.

I can't take it anymore. It's too much for me. I will fix this, whether it's in a good way, or bad. You will stop.

You will see me.

I can't feel
The way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored


I walk up to your study again.

"Largo."

Look at me, DAMN IT!

"Go away, miho. I'm busy. We will talk about this later."

Time won't heal
This damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored


No, we wont. There is no more later. Time has run out for us Largo. You aren't avoiding me anymore. FACE ME!

"No we wont. Turn around. Now."

I am
A little bit insecure
A little unconfident
'Cause you don't understand
I do what I can
But sometimes I don't make sense


You turn around. Its that look again. That mother look. I…I cant resist it. I break down. Tears fill my eyes

"Why? WHY?! Why largo? What am I doing wrong? TELL ME!"

I am
What you never want to say
But I've never had a doubt
It's like no matter what I do
I can't convince you
For once just to hear me out


You get up. My eyes widen. There isn't any turning back now.

You grit your teeth. You are angry. I can see it. Maybe you start to feel how I'm feeling?

"Miho, go away. NOW!"

So I let go
Watching you
Turn your back like you always do
Face away and pretend that I'm not
But I'll be here
'Cause you're all that I got


"NO!"

The tears flow freely now. I take a step forward. You don't seem intimidated at all. You used to be…

"I'm sick of this largo! I can't take it any more! You hear me? TALK TO ME!"

I can't feel
The way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal
This damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me

I won't be ignored

"Calm down"

I start to sob. Just two simple words, and you almost defeat me? My love for you has made me so weak now, not like I used to be. But I gather strength. It's not over yet.

"No, largo. Not this time. This time it's gone too far. You will hear me."

No
Hear me out now
You're gonna listen to me
Like it or not
Right now
Hear me out now
You're going to listen to me
Like it or not
Right now


"You have always ignored me. What happened, Largo? What went wrong? I used to have a place in your world! I used to matter! Now it's your work! ALWAYS YOUR WORK!"

You tilt your head back slightly. You sneer.

"You are being pathetic. What happened to the strong woman I knew?"

You sit down again.

And turn your back on me.

NO!!

I can't feel
The way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored


I can't control myself anymore. I grab your letter opener. I scream, all the agony of these months pouring out of me. You turn around and get up. You stare at me.

"NOW YOU SEE ME?!"

You are about to see the truth, Largo. Are you ready?

I can't feel
The way I did before
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored
Time won't heal
This damage anymore
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored


I can't control myself anymore. I lunge for you. You try to turn but you are backed up against your chair. I crash into you, throwing you into the wall. I hold the letter opener at your throat.

"You wont do it"

But I do. I plunge it into your shoulder. You wince in pain.


The shock, the horror. My eyed widen. I stumble back and stare. You pull it out. You frown at me.

It's the hate again.

I can't feel
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored


I lose it. I swing my arm back.

And make contact

You have a shocked expression. The smack, a stinging touch, was too much for both of us. We stand, staring at each other for a few seconds.

You collapse onto your knees.

Time won't heal
Don't turn your back on me
I won't be ignored


"Oh…miho!"

Two tears, one from each eye, stream down your cheeks.

I collapse onto my knees as well. Its over…my heart feels like it will just burst.

"I'm so sorry miho…I"

I put my finger to your lips.

Its more than mere words can say.

I embrace you. To feel you, your arms around me, which I had not felt for so long.

It was over. I felt as though I could live again…

"Largo…I love you…"

That was the last thing I could remember…a mere whisper, but a whisper that spoke stronger and louder than any shout or louder than any crowd.

You fall onto your back. I put my ear against your chest. To feel your heartbeat.

Is to feel happiness again. I'm alive. You are alive.

I fall asleep, in your study, lying on top of you, my head resting on your rising and falling chest, listening to your breath and heartbeat.

"Oh Largo,…I love you."

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